Chapter Six: Duke Anle Takes a Concubine

The sudden bloodshed before the mansion that time completely transformed Liu Xian’s childhood. He had never witnessed such a scene, nor could he imagine it. As a result, for several nights afterward, he was plagued by nightmares filled with blood, mud, corpses, and the gleam of blades like white frost.

In those flashes of steel, he seemed to be locked in endless combat. When one opponent fell, another would take their place, forcing him to fight ceaselessly. Until, at some point, exhaustion overtook him, and a throat-severing blow woke him suddenly in bed, trembling as he instinctively touched his neck.

As he calmed, the solitary figure of Wang Fu would appear before his eyes, his ghostly, colorless face haunting his memory.

Who was he, really? Where did he come from? Why did he die? And what connection did he have with “me”?

Such philosophical questions were hardly meant for a child, yet they clung to Liu Xian, filling him with fear and confusion, compelling him to seek answers.

Unfortunately, when Liu Xian asked his father, he was met with a deeply somber expression.

“Forget about him,” his father said succinctly.

But Liu Xian—and indeed everyone in the household—could tell that although the Duke of Anle said those words, he could not truly abide by them.

In Liu Xian’s memory, his father, Liu Xun, was a man difficult to approach.

Not because he was stern or humorless—in fact, quite the opposite. Normally, Liu Xun was easy to talk to. When servants took leave or minor discrepancies arose during grain collection, the Duke of Anle would pardon them without question. On festivals, he generously distributed grain to the staff.

But this was merely a facade. Beneath his easy-going exterior lay a deep indifference to everything.

Once, when Liu Yao returned from the palace and told Liu Xian about rumors in Luoyang—about a man who, after taking poison, went mad and killed someone, even cutting open a pregnant woman’s belly—the Duke of Anle’s response was chillingly casual.

“Is that all?”

“Yes, that’s all.”

“Boring.”

His tone was flat, as if both the story and the teller were utterly dull. Then he simply walked away.

Though an ordinary conversation, Liu Xian almost choked on the cold heaviness of those two words.

This indifference extended not only to outsiders but even to his own family.

When Liu Xian once disappeared for half a day after climbing a tree, the entire household was frantic. Zhang Ximiao urged him to seek help from the Luoyang magistrate, but Liu Xun remained unmoved, mocking his wife with sarcastic remarks:

“Gone for just half a day, and you want to involve the magistrate? If it were a whole day, should I beg the emperor?”

Liu Xian only understood the gravity of this as he grew older: love manifests in small acts, not merely in moments of life and death. If his father did not care in daily life, he likely never would.

From this perspective, Liu Xun was far from a good father. Yet young Liu Xian could not fathom what truly mattered to his distant father, what could stir his soul.

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